Reader,
I apologize for my lack of entries due to my unwaivering procrastination and hatred for trying to make sense of things. Since I last updated not much has happened. For the most part I still sit at my computer everyday and contemplate how pathetic my life has become. Though, I did go out once last week. My friend Amy invited me to breakfast with her mother and sister and that was very pleasant. After our meal, we went for a walk by the lake. The weather was beautiful and so was the grounds and trail. I enjoyed the outing. I needed to get out of the house, for I was beginning to go stir crazy. I clean on a daily basis now. I get so bored I have to just get up and do something, so I clean. There is always a mess to clean, and if there is not I make one to clean. I’ve organized the majority of my belongings. I’m trying to downsize the amount of clutter I have, for I intend to move soon and less clutter is better. Lately I have been “updating” my music. I cleaned some old songs that I’m sick of off the computer and found a few good ones to take their places. I’m pleased with change, though I intend to find more good music. I do love music, so it really is too bad that I am not in any way, shape, or form musically inclined. I recorded myself singing earlier, and I daresay I’ve never heard anyone so horrible in my life. Not only did my voice lack any form of volume, but it just lacked. I wish I could sing beautifully, or at least play an instrument. Alas, I cannot. I will add that to my “things to do before I die list.” Learning an instrument. Yes, that sounds splendid.
After my embarrassing American Idol episode, I decided to just prattle on about nothing and record myself. It amused me for a good ten minutes or so. I have decided I will do a voice blog one of these days just for the fun of it. I need to work on my speaking skills anyway. That was actually something I said in my recording. After a while, I did notice that it was a lot like talking to yourself but I kept on talking anyway. I say “like” and “anyway” way too much. I am going to try to break this habit, for it is a nasty one. I want to make myself more eloquent. I think I am going to brain storm a “Needs to Improve…” list and post it on here. I have a lot of quirks about myself I want to fix because I fear they’re holding me back. Well, so far my biggest plans for this coming week is going to be pulling an all nighter so that I can get my sleeping pattern a bit more normal. Now I stay up until 4 or 5 and then get up around 1 or 2. I need to get it so that I can go to bed around 2 and get up around 9 or 10. Even though I do love the night…
Well, that is all for now I’m going to make my improvements list :]
Have a lovely day.
Sincerely,
Samantha
