Reader,

I apologize for my lack of entries due to my unwaivering procrastination and hatred for trying to make sense of things. Since I last updated not much has happened. For the most part I still sit at my computer everyday and contemplate how pathetic my life has become. Though, I did go out once last week. My friend Amy invited me to breakfast with her mother and sister and that was very pleasant. After our meal, we went for a walk by the lake. The weather was beautiful and so was the grounds and trail. I enjoyed the outing. I needed to get out of the house, for I was beginning to go stir crazy. I clean on a daily basis now. I get so bored I have to just get up and do something, so I clean. There is always a mess to clean, and if there is not I make one to clean. I’ve organized the majority of my belongings. I’m trying to downsize the amount of clutter I have, for I intend to move soon and less clutter is better. Lately I have been “updating” my music. I cleaned some old songs that I’m sick of off the computer and found a few good ones to take their places. I’m pleased with change, though I intend to find more good music. I do love music, so it really is too bad that I am not in any way, shape, or form musically inclined. I recorded myself singing earlier, and I daresay I’ve never heard anyone so horrible in my life. Not only did my voice lack any form of volume, but it just lacked. I wish I could sing beautifully, or at least play an instrument. Alas, I cannot. I will add that to my “things to do before I die list.” Learning an instrument. Yes, that sounds splendid.

After my embarrassing American Idol episode, I decided to just prattle on about nothing and record myself. It amused me for a good ten minutes or so. I have decided I will do a voice blog one of these days just for the fun of it. I need to work on my speaking skills anyway. That was actually something I said in my recording. After a while, I did notice that it was a lot like talking to yourself but I kept on talking anyway. I say “like” and “anyway” way too much. I am going to try to break this habit, for it is a nasty one. I want to make myself more eloquent. I think I am going to brain storm a “Needs to Improve…” list and post it on here. I have a lot of quirks about myself I want to fix because I fear they’re holding me back. Well, so far my biggest plans for this coming week is going to be pulling an all nighter so that I can get my sleeping pattern a bit more normal. Now I stay up until 4 or 5 and then get up around 1 or 2. I need to get it so that I can go to bed around 2 and get up around 9 or 10. Even though I do love the night…

Well, that is all for now I’m going to make my improvements list :]

Have a lovely day.

Sincerely,

Samantha

The second day that this blog has been active has arrived. I do not have much to say today, not that I ever do. I added a page to this beast called “Essays.” If you can not figure out what that page is about just from the title…well, I’m not going to explain it to you. Anyway, feel free to read, review, constructively criticized, or intelligently argue with me. I’m open-minded and I would like to better my skills through suggestions rather than hinder myself with ignorance. I may upload some of my stories I have started. I have one running on Fanfiction.net at the moment, but I have had major writer’s block, so we’ll see where that goes. That is about it for now, back to my college and life research. Have a wonderful evening.

Sincerely,

Sam

It was inevitable that I would join another blogging website. It was just bound to happen. Here I am writing on this new addition to my wall of numerous other online journals. I am not going to promise anything wonderfully articulate or exceptionally probing, but you will get a genuine “run down” on all my thoughts and feelings. If you are lucky, some thoughts may be enlightening…others may just be filler. Who really knows? I do not, not now anyway. I plan on adding a few of my essays I wrote the past semester on here, maybe some art. I really do not know. This may turn out to be a random scrapbook of sorts, or it could turn into a story that is just itching to get out, or maybe even just the gist of my mundane life. What ever my mind guides me to write, I shall. Unfortunately, it is getting late now and I have no desire to really add more than this to my first post.

Sincerely,

Sam